At age 14, I developed what seemed to be hypoglycemia. I never visited a doctor about my condition, but, obviously, something was malfunctioning in my body. If I ate less than every two to three hours, I experienced severe sugar lows. I became irritable, cold, nauseated and withdrawn. I couldn’t focus, make decisions, follow a train of thought or communicate what was wrong. Suffering from shame and fear (particularly fear of diabetes and fear that somehow my situation was my fault), I never discussed it with anyone.
In fall of 2003, through encouragement and love of those around me, I owned up to my struggle and my fear. Finances prevented me from seeing a physician, but I tried to keep ahead of the sickness by carrying food with me at all times, communicating to those around me when I needed to eat and being honest about what I dealt with.
On 20 December 2004, John Brown challenged me to get prayer at the Healing Wells for “the food thing,” as it had come to be called. Everything in me resisted. I was afraid to be healed, but I knew not why. As it is not in me to back down from a challenge, I asked for prayer that night. The three members of the team praying for me listened while I explained what was going on and began praying. It led them to inner healing and they never hesitated to follow the Holy Spirit as He brought them to my heart issues from when I was nine years old.
I repented of making the vows, “I am not worth being protected,” and “I am not worth being taken care of.” The members of the prayer team guided me through forgiveness and proclamation of God’s word and spoke to my pancreas to function as God intended: perfectly. I felt much better emotionally, but I knew walking out the forgiveness would be the key to my healing. The next three weeks saw me on a road trip, ending at the home of the very person who wounded me when I made those vows. The work God did in my heart stuck; I have had no episodes of low blood sugar levels and had a wonderful visit. I still eat often - a high metabolism is a high metabolism - but I do not experience highs and lows, nausea, or any of the other symptoms of hypoglycemia. After more than eight years of sickness, I am completely healed.
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